It's really sucks to know that i screwed it up again

Last week had been a very disappointing week for me. For your information, during summer i'm doing research about concrete. It's very exciting experiences working with Americans and do something that could make a different.Its sound quite exaggerating rite?haha..Well maybe the research paper could help engineers and contractors out there to create more strong structure. who knows rite?

My specialty in this research is on Semi adiabatic Calorimetric chamber or in short form we called it SACC(not sexx ye guys!!). This SACC help to determine the heat of hydration from hardening concrete. The heat produces by the hydrating concrete during early ages is very important in predicting the strength of the concrete in later ages. Enough said, SACC helps to predict the mechanical and thermal properties of concrete.

But, the mistakes that i did again and again was by activated the SACC when the concrete had been hydrating for more than 1 hours. That was very terrible mistakes which it should be running as soon as we put the concrete in the SACC. The most important parts in my research is to know the heat of evolution for the first hours and so on. Make it worst, the materials is limited thus it's not possible to redo again the experiments. So, i need to live with my mistakes and move forward to complete the paper without the data for the first hour. Luckily, the graph looks nice and it still give some useful information to be evaluated.

So rite now, i've completed the paper and it is being review by the editor for the any grammatical errors. SO guys do pray for me, so that i managed to publish the paper although i did those silly mistakes. hehe..

p/s: Life must go on even thought it is difficult.

Semester Baru Semangat Baru

Assalamualaikum semua.

Sudah berabuk rupanya aku punya blog neh. Maka sudah tiba masanya untuk membersihkan segala kotoran degil dekat blog neh..hehe..keyboard[check],mouse[check], idea[check]..jom blogging.

Mungkin para pembaca sekalian tertanya-tanya dimana hilangnya nabil neh..haha..Sebenarnya aku dah lama xpost benda baru sebab terlalu sibuk berjuang untuk negara dan agama...chewah..So ak nak cite segala pengalaman-pengalaman aku buat selama menghilangkan diri lebih dari tiga bulan ini.

kalau korang nak tau summer adalah cuti yang paling lama untuk budak-budak sekolah dekat US neh. Masa inilah ada macam-macam aktiviti gila yang boleh buat..antaranya sky diving, hiking, travel dan skodeng awek2 minah saleh yg seksi..hehe..tapi yg last tu ak tak buat lah...O.O..serius neh korang kene percaya..aku kan baik..hehe...

antara paling best ak wat time summer neh adalah road trip sejauh 5000mile. tengok map bawah neh..coolkan?

Antara tempat-tempat yang aku pergi adalah wisconsin dimana aku dapat berjumpa kebanyakkan pelajar-pelajar malaysia disini. Yang paling cool adalah pi yellowstone national park. korang tau x pe mende 2..alah yang ade dalam movie 2012 2..yang watak utama cbe untuk dapatkan map kapal noah 2..yellowstone neh la mase terakhir aku bersama-sama senior yang banyak membantu aku di US neh. Kalo korang nak tau lebih lanjut pasal yellowstone neh korang boleh usha gambar-gambar kat fb aku..Yellowstone adalah tempat yang tercantik yang pernah aku pergi..paling akuxboleh lupa fanomena tasik yang separuh beku dan dekelilingi gunung-ganang bersalji. Begitu cantik sehingga aku terpegun melihat tasik tu. Tapi sayang kemera tidak dapat merakamkan kecantikkan views yang aku tengok tu. SO, ak amatlah galakkan korang letak dalam list "the places that you must go before you die"..haha

Selepas roadtrip neh, aku mulalah menyebokkan diri dengan pelajaran seperti biasa. Tetapi yang luar biasanya aku dapat peluang untuk membuat research. Bukan sahaja pengalaman aku dapat tapi dapat duet juga..hehe..tapi maaflah..tak dapat bagi korang sebab aku nak gune duit tu untuk EURO TRIP next summer nanti..hehe..jangan jeles eh kawan-kawan :P...

Research yang aku buat neh walaupun sibuk macam budak phD tapi awesome sebab aku dapat ilmu2 baru yang dimana selama ini ilmu ak yang dipelajari perlulah digunakan untuk melakukan research neh. Selain itu aku juga dapat melihat ethics orang-orang US neh buat kerje. In case korang tak tau ak sebenarnya kerja bawah orang yahudi. Dan aku sungguh kagum dengan usaha dan tenaga yang dorang letak dalam setiap kerja yang dorang lakukan. Sebab tulah yahudi control dunia skrang. Dan yang paling best adalah research paper aku buat neh akan dipublish apabila siap. *yang mana masih belum siap dan ak perlu terus buat untuk fall sem neh..haish..

banyak lagi mende awesome aku nak kongsi dengan korang tapi aku malas nak menaip..so kalo nak tau lebih lanjut meh r jumpa ak..haha..

So semester baru dah mula dan visi dan misi tahun neh aku nak dapatkan empat rata untuk semester neh dan cuba untuk apply for study abroad program..mane lah tau kalo ade razeki boleh blaja kat europe pulak kan..hehe..doakan aku ye kawan..thank you all for reading..salam

ps: Ilmu tanpa amal adalah satu pembaziran.

MASA

Pertama sekali aku ingin mengucapkan tahniah kepada ahli-ahli Eboard yg baru. Harapan supaya saudara saudari dapat menjalankan tanggungjawab dan amanah yang diberikan sebaik mungkin. Kepada president yang baru tetapkan matlamat dan strategi untuk menjayakan lagi persatuan ini. Aku percaya ahli-ahli dibawah bersedia untuk berkhidmat dan bekerjasama bagi menjayakan lagi MASA di Stevens ini. Maka janganlah sesekali lupa tentang amanah dan ahli-ahli yang menyokong dibawah ini.

Sebenarnya aku mempunyai beberapa kritik dan idea yang ingin dibincangkan untuk MASA . Semoga kritik dan idea-idea yang diberikan dapat membantu menaikkan lagi nama MASA di Stevens. Insyallah. Dibawah ini adalah idea dan huraiannya:

1. Pemilihan calon

• Aku sebenarnya amat terkejut dengan cara pemilihan dan perlantikan untuk kepimpinan baru MASA ini. Antara sebab-sebabnya, aku beranggapan pemilihan ini adalah tidak demokratik dan kurang sensitif tentang perlantikan kepimpinan yang baru. Kepimpinan adalah sesuatu yang kritikal untuk memajukan sesuatu organisasi. Oleh sebab itu, kepimpinan haruslah dipilih melalui undi majoriti ahli, kerelaan dan kelayakkan seseorang untuk memimpin. Apa yang mengejutkan aku pemilihan boleh dikatakan dibuat secara terburu-buru tanpa proses yang sepatutnya dalam memilih satu kepimpinan yang baru.
• Maka aku berharap dimasa hadapan kepimpinan yang baru akan dipilih lebih demokratik dan bedasarkan suara majoriti, kerelaan dan kelayakkan seseorang. Bila lagi kita nak belajar selok belok demokrasi dan prosedur pilihanraya di negara kita jika bukan di sini. adalah lebih baik kepimpinan yang baru dipilih melalui proses seperti pilihanraya umum. Maksudnya sesiapa yang ingin memimpin haruslah menamakan percalonannya sendiri dengan memberikan maklumat tentang beberapa kreteria yang penting untuk memilih pemimpin seperti, kelayakan,pengalaman,visi&misi, sebab ingin bertanding dll di dalam boring dan diberi kepada kepimpinan sedia ada, ataupun jika permintaan ramai dibolehkan wakil untuk menamakan calon untuk bertanding.
• Kemudian kepimpinan yang sedia ada akan memilih calon yang layak untuk dipilih dan disingkatkan penamaannya bagi proses seterusnya. Pengundian dilakukan oleh ahli-ahli setelah memberikan manifesto. Jika terlalu ramai calon yang ingin bertanding dan mereka layak maka adalah tanggungjawab kepimpinan yang lama untuk menapis calon, ataupun boleh dilakukan tapisan oleh ahli-ahli sebelum proses yang terakhir: manisfesto dan pembuangan undi.
• Rasionalnya aku membangkitkan hal ini kerana dengan cara ini kita dapat memilih calon yang lebih layak dan berkeinginan untuk berkhidmat sebagai pemimpin untuk kepentingan MASA dan ahli-ahli. Selain itu dapat memberikan peluang kepada calon yang tidak rela untuk menarik diri dan memberi peluang kepada ahli-ahli yang mungkin tidak tersenarai untuk menamakan diri bagi memberikan manifesto dan meraih undi. tambahan pula inilah masa kita untuk belajar selok-belok demokrasi, pilihanraya umum, kepimpinan dan pembuangan undi yang seebetulnya oleh sebab kebanyakkan ahli adalah dalam 20-an.

2. Manual

• Manual adalah amat penting untuk sesebuah organisasi yang berstruktur untuk memudahkan proses kepimpinan. Apa yang kita dapat lihat sekarang, kebanyakkan perkara memerlukan manual hatta untuk memasang lego. Maka apatah lagi untuk menjadikan sesuatu organisasi cemerlang,gemilang dan terbilang. Idea ini wujud apabila, Nurul Adibah membangkitkan tentang program director (PD) yang dilantik untuk mengadakan sesuatu program untuk MASA kadang-kadang hanya melepaskan batuk di tangga bagi menganjurkan sesebuah program.
• Salah satu sebab yang aku rasa PD-PD baru ini berkelakuan sebegitu ataupun tidak menganjurkan sesebuah program dengan jayanya adalah sebab tidak mengetahui selok belok untuk menganjurkan sesuatu program. Sebagai contoh cara-cara untuk menempah tempat, membuat kertas kerja bagi mendapatkan sponsor dll.
• Maka dengan adanya manual ini ianya dapat membantu menerangakan cara-cara penganjuran sesuatu program ini maka dapat memudahkan proses penganjuran tersebut. Maka mungkin hasilnya lebih berjaya berbanding PD yang berusaha mencari makluamat tentang prosuder dan informasi bagi menganjurkan program dan tidak mengatahui procedure yang sepatutnya, dengan PD yang mempunyai manual untuk membantunya mengadakan program yang telah dipertanggungjawabkan.
• Rasionalnya, dapat membantu menjimatkan masa dan membantu PD untuk memahami proses dan keperluan bagi mengadakan sesuatu program. Maka dengan itu dapat membantu PD fokus kepada faktor-faktor untuk menjayakan lagi program yang dianjurkan. Selain itu, kepimpinan dan PD yang baru tidak perlu melakukan proses pencarian maklumat dan melakukan kesalahan berulang kali setiap kali perlantikan baru dibuat. Maknanya Maklumat yang diperlukan telah disampaikan dengan manual daripada orang yang berpengalaman memimpin kepada kepimpinan baru
• Manual mungkin boleh dibuat sedikit demi sedikit dan diusahakan bersama bagi memudahkan generasi kepimpinan yang seterusnya.

3. Meeting

• Seperti yang kita ketahui, salah satu sebab sesetengah ahli-ahli membuat hal lain di dalam mesyuarat adalah kerana tempat yang tidak sesuai. Hal ini saudara suudari telah dengar ianya dibangkitkan pada meeting yang lepas.
• Maka penyelesaiannya mungkin kita boleh menggunakan kelas-kelas yang tidak digunakan di barbio center,buchard or mana-mana bilik yang mungkin mempunyai kekosongan dan sesuai untuk mengadakan meeting. sebolehnya meeting janganlah dibuat ditempat awam yang terbuka seperti howe center.
• Rasionalnya, meeting ditempat awam bukan sahaja menganggu proses dan tumpuan mesyuarat itu tetapi turut menganggu orang awam.

4. Inventory

• seperti yang dibangkitkan di dalam mesyuarat yang lepas kita mempunyai masalah berkaitan dengan peralatan-peralatan MASA yang bertaburan tanpa rekod. Mungkin ketiadaan stor untuk menyimpan peralatan-peralatan ini adalah salah satu punca. Namun ianya tidak dapat dielakkan kerana kita tiada mempunyai ruang dan kemampuan untuk mewujudkan stor untuk peralatan-peralatan MASA
• Namun salah satu jalan penyelesaian yang mudah adalah dengan melantik seseorang yang dipertanggungjawabkan bagi menjaga, menyimpan rekod, mengagihkan barang kepada ahli untuk disimpan dan lain-lain yang berkenaan dengan peralatan MASA. Sudah tiba masanya MASA melantik satu jawatan baru untuk menjaga peralatan MASA supaya mudah kita mendapatkan maklumat tentang peralatan tersebut sebelum dan selepas aktiviti. Maka saya mencadangkan mewujudkan QuaterMaster (QM) bagi menjalankan amanah ini.
• Rasionalnya, kita dapat menyimpan rekod barang-barang yang wujud di dalam inventory dan dimana ianya disimpan. Ini dapat mengurangkan perbelanjaan pembelian barang yang berlapis-lapis. selain itu kita dapat mengetahui status barang mana yang tiada dan ada yang penting untuk sesuatu program yang akan diadakan. Proses pencarian menjadi mudah dan senang jika kita mempunyai sesorang yang mengetahui segala maklumat yang berkaitan dengan inventory.

5. kewangan

• Seperti yang kita ketahui, kewangan adalah satu faktor yang kritikal dan sensitif bagi sesebuah organisasi seperti MASA. Mati hidup MASA boleh dikatakan bergantung dengan pengurusan kewangan yang baik.
• Maka aku amatlah tidak bersetuju apabila laporan kewangan MASA dirahsiakan daripada ahli-ahli biasa. Oleh kerana kritikalnya kewangan MASA maka berhaklah setiap ahli mengetahui status kewangan MASA.
• Rasionalnya, bukan sahaja bagi ketelusan kepimpinan tetapi bagi memberikan informasi kepada ahli-ahli tentang perbelanjaan yang telah digunakan dan baki yang masih wujud untuk penganjuran program yang seterusnya. Hal ini dapat membantu ahli-ahli memahami pengurusan MASA dan juga mengelakkan pembaziran. Selain itu, MASA adalah persatuan yang dikongsi kepentingan bersama ahli-ahli yang lain maka perlulah ahli-ahli mengetahui status kewangan MASA.
• Mungkin bendahari dapat mengupdate status kewangan di laman web rasmi MASA dan ianya hanya dapat diekses oleh ahli-ahli sahaja yang berdaftar.

Hal-hal diatas adalah yang berkaitan dan timbul di dalam pemilihan kepimpinan minggu lepas. Diharap segala buah fikiran dapat dianalisa dengan sebaiknya oleh mereka yang berkuasa. Mana yang dirasakan baik untuk memajukan dan meningkatkan nama MASA harap dapat dilaksanakan. Mana yang buruk diperbetulkan,mana yang elok dikekalkan dan ditingkatkan. Semoga MASA menjadi satu organisasi yang dapat cemerlang dan dapat memberikan manfaat yang baik kepada ahli-ahli.

p/s: mendengar dan memberi nasihat/teguran/idea adalah salah satu cara meningkatkan kualiti dan prestasi seseorang atau organisasi.

Bookworms

wonder why bookworm is called bookworm

once upon a time, a young man went to a most populous city in this world, this city has been the center for global commerce, finance, media, culture, art, fashion, research, education, entertainment and so on you can think for a few decades. he was astonishing by this city environment and trying to understand how in the heck this city could achieved such a great success in developed an advanced civilization compare to most other countries.this city is also the center of international affairs, which a very decision make in this city has a significant impact in this world. therefore this young man traveled around this city to find out the secret behind this city success.

Then he noticed something that maybe important for this success as everywhere he went he saw that most of the people in this city was reading something in their free time. So then, he wondered is this the secret behind this city achievements?

the people in this city always using their time to do something beneficial for their future. Means that they are investing their time for their future while reading the book. so this culture and what materials they are reading maybe are the factors why today they have a major influenced in most field: science, politic economy and etc.

Then He remembered something In the Quran, the first verse of surah al-Alaq: "Read! In the Name of your Lord, Who has created (all that exists)". in this verse, the god Himself told human to read first before worship Him. This is because by reading you could gain knowledge to understand Islam and Him better and to develop ourselves to be a great human. you could not worship Him without knowing a thing about Him rite. So this is also could be applied to the civilization. you could not develop your civilization if you don't have any knowledge. so read is very crucial to develop human capital.

this young man is then trying to compare this culture with his people. yeah there are people who reading while taking a train or waiting something. & there is also a program organized by government to promote this wonderful culture. but, he noticed that the different is, in his country most of the young age people reading comics or light materials. which is not a material that could provide a significant knowledge for the development of human capital.

most teenager in his country love to read comics and love story/novel instead use their time to read a good materials such as a material about economics, world affairs and so on. compare to the most successful people in this world, they are using their time to read a stuff that can trigger their mind to think or beneficial for them.

so, he can conclude that, to be a successful people and to contribute for the development of the family,country and religion one must make reading as his/her culture or habit so that we could achieve and acquire new knowledge to developed a human capital.

it all can be started from a little thing. one can try to read the most interesting topic he/she likes: economy, global affairs, politic,humanity, psychology, history and so on for 5minutes or 1 article, then try to increase the time used and articles read for every day or week. after that, try to read other topics too. for those who realize the important of reading and try to change, the man really like to recommend TIME or reader's digest as a material to read. this two are really good materials with various topic that can broaden your mind.

PS: Use your time wisely by read because it is scarce and it could not be reversed.

Sigh!!

actually i got a different idea to post today but then i read one of my friend's blog and got a new idea which i really would like you guys to ponder about. although my idea before i read my friend's blog is crystal clear, i'm still looking for words to explain it. so today i gonna talk about something else that suddenly come cross my mind.lol

so.....[translating my words into BM]...time korang baca tajuk entry neh mesti korang boleh agak bunyi apemende tu..alaa yang biase korang buat time korang penat giler or tensen dengan hidup korang. Antara bunyi yang bersamaan dengan ayt 2 adalah alah, adui, hish, argh and so on...mbbekk xtermasuk eh..haha

maka hari ini mari kita membincangkan tentang mengeluh.so kawan-kawan...mari kita pikir sejenak kenapa kita mengeluh apabila berhadapan dengan sesuatu yg sukar ataupon pape masalah.
antara yang ak dapat pikirlah kan..urmm.. adakah cabaran yg dilalui itu tidak mampu diselesaikan atau pown aku rasakan diri ni tak mampu tok menghadapi semua itu? so korang tolong pikir alasan laen..pastu bagitau ak sebab die..

sebenarnya kan bg aku xde sebab pown, kerana seperti yang kita tau, Allah tidak sama sekali memberikan sesuatu ujian atau cabaran kepada hambanya jika kita tidak mampu menghadapinya. so pe yg kita tempuhi stiap hari adalah ujian yg kita mampu buat.

setiap insan dilahirkan kekurangan dan kelebihan tersendiri, setiap org mempunyai cabaran dan adventure tersendiri dalam hidup. xpercaye? cube korang tengok sekeliling korang, kalo korang perhatikan betol-betol setiap org sebok menghadapi cabaran hidup mereka tersendiri. time korang pikir, aduh penatnya la ak hari ni, da la de 3xem, hmwk berlambak kerja rumah lagi and blablabla..time korang mengeluh sndri penah x korang pndang langit tgk kiri kanan korang?

kalo korang mengeluh korang berhenti jap then tengok sekeliling korang. stiap mahkluk kat muka bumi neh ade cabaran masing-masing. ade korang nmpak burung mengeluh pastu duk diam je kat sarang die? xdekan..haha..burung tu lagi lah.. stiap hri berjuang untok hidup mencari mknan pagi2 buta...lg susah dorgnye hdup..ttbe cri makan burung helang sambar dorg..da kne makan..kiok tros...setakat mengeluh buat hmwk yg insyallah klo bukan ajal korang memang x akan mati buat 2 kenapalah kita nak mengeluh..

so my points is, janganlah mengeluh dalam hidup korang neh, jadilah seorang yang optimistik, rancanglah hidup dengan sebaiknya dan enjoy setiap detik hidup korang. percayalah klo korang sntiasa berfikir positif nescaya smua korang wat itu mudah.(wah ayat) so muhasabah la diri, dan setiap kali korang mengeluh korang cubalah berfikiran positif. bila kita sntiasa berfikiran positif percayalah 24hours per day will be not enough to enjoy your life's adventure. ak xske mengeluh utp ak kadang-kadang suke menyesal x buat smua mende yang aku mampu dalam hidup aku...huhu.

ps: Be Optimistic but do not take it for granted in life.

Awesome Trip & Losing My Sentimental

Yeah today had been my greatest day in 2011 because i had done one of the adventurous activities that i must do in this year.

hence to make sure you guy appreciate, feel and imagine the fun that i experienced i'll write this post in Malay. so for those who doesnt understand the language please go to google translate..haha

aku sebenarnye dari bulan december tahun lepas lagi nak pergi maen snowboard neh tapi oleh sebab kekangan masa dan duit aku terpaksa menahan nafsu snowboard ini.

Belleayre Mountain, NY ski treks

Tetapi akhirnya trip ke Belleayre Mountain, NY ini, aku berjaya juga melunaskan keinginan aku ni.. actually mende-mende pasal snowboard ini ak bkn tau sgt..but surely not exactly with zero kwowledge la..sebab ak tau snowboarding neh bile korang ikat kaki kat papan pastu gelonsor turun bukit yang penuh dengan salji tetapi beware eh kawan-kawan, ianya adalah amat berbeza skali yang macam kat malaysia tu. yang mana kita maen gelonsor pkai daun pokok kelapa tu turun bukit or orang tolong tarik. tetapi ak nak terang kat korg pown aku tak expert lg psl terms2 or rule die neh..klo korangg nk tau sangat meh bace bawah neh.

1. regular: orang yang meletakkan kaki kiri as a front leg ketike snowboarding
2. goofy: orang yang meletakkan kaki kanan as a front leg ketike snowboarding. kirenye org goofy ni mungkin dapat pahala sunat ketike meluncur tu sebab mendahulukan kaki kanan. oh ye, aku goofy.
   
3. heel: cara mengawal board menggunakan tumit
4. toe: cara mengawal board menggunakan jari which means bukan jari-jari 2 yang gerak, tapi kite bagi pressure kat bahagian hadapan kaki kite supaya board tersebut dapat dikawal. same goes with heel tadi
5. trail: laluan snowboard tu la kan(from easy to expert-> green, blue,black & double black)
   

*informasi diambil dari mantol sebab kemalasan dan kesakitan tangan untuk menulis..haha

so korang dah paham pasal snowboard neh meh aku cite sikit pengalaman pertama aku maen snowboard neh..oleh sebab ak rase aku ni terer la jugak dan aku adalah budak HACC *pressure dowh jd dak HACC..xpectation org tggi sgt..haha aku pown cube tok bermain seperti pro tanpa mengambil lesson yg spatutnya dahulu...tapi dengan bantuan ak punye sifu BO aka Nabil no. 2 *ko mesti kembang en klo bce neh, ak berjaye belajar dengan jayanya skil-skil snowboard ni..

so setelah belajar secara teori smua skil-skil tu maka ak mulakan lah praktikalnya dengan meletakkan objektif, misi dan visi yang sepatutnya tok pro macam aku neh..haha

visi dan misi:

1. belajar mengelak kesakitan yg amat sangat ketika bersnowboarding
2. meluncur dengan jayanya di laluan green
3. mengelak daripada tackle 4 org sekali semasa meluncur.
   

so setelah pelbagai skil-skil yg telah dikeluarkan dan dipaksa oleh graviti, aku telah berjaya mencapai visi & misi aku akhirnya dengan membawa blik buah tangan yg aku xpasti smpai bile aku merasanya *skang jalan pown da terkankang-kankang...cakap je la skil ape yang korang nak. semua ak dah buat: kuak lentang, diving, flip flop, flip high, backflip..smua r..tapi yg terbaik skali adalah diving..mmg putih la jadi muke aku makan snow..tp bak kate org la kan..no pain no gain rite?. at least aku berjaya mencapai visi dan misi aku kan..

dan oleh sebab ak rase pain die 2 masih x berbaloi for the gain, dengan beraninya aku pown try green trek dimana ak berjaya menambah skil-skil aku..memang terbaiklah..keseronakkan meluncur zig zag dengan kelajuan yg tggi dan membuat skil-skil yg baru tiada kata yang dapat digambarkan. bak kate sifu aku, *ko jgn tkot dgn kelajuan, sebenarnya kelajuan tu bagos..mmg bagos la..berbaloi aku rase pain ak apabila meluncur dengan laju.

tetapi malangnya dan membuatkan ak berasa hilang kesoronokan apabila sedang mencuba skil yg baru then accidentally my sentimental hand phone dropped somewhere from my pocket..maka dengan rase sedih dan kecamuknya aku mendaki dan cuba untuk menjejaki handphone yang tercicir tadi.

betol2 anti klimaks punye tragedi..abis smua gmbr keseronokan snowboarding hilang bersama handphone sentimental aku..malang tidak berbau sungguh..ku sangka cerah hingga ke petang, rupa-rupanya snow plak time bersnowboading. hish..abeh hilang semua kenangan2 yang lepas dan nilai sentimentalnya..hurmmmmmm (T.T)...sory guys xdapat bg gambar..maybe next time :(

anyway, this trip surely is not my last trip..misi dan visi seterusnya adalah double black..lol

PS:todays moral value guys...no pain no gain & dont give up even you managed to try many painful skills..urm kawan-kawan nak bli snowboard ke tak eh?

Saya Dah Besar Dah

That are the word that i'm always say whenever my parents treating me as a child.
yeah it's true that they always want the best from me and hope me to be the best son. well actually im always be the best son..haha..because im the only one son that they have.:P

but be the only son and getting older, here comes the great responsibility.

so now as i already 21 years old i have been thinking what will i do in my sweet 21.well isn't sweet when you became 21 years old? of coz you can drink in the bar, go clubbing and so on without worrying any legal action. it is legal age for you to do everything..maximum happiness+dosa..haha. but as i said before getting older doesn't mean you can do anything in your life because it will comes with greater responsibility. like in the spiderman movie "with the great power comes the great responsibility"..*ade kena mengena ke?


lawa en :)

anyway, just wanna say thanks you all for the wishes. especially to my family and her..I love you allz lah..

Ps:now i can vote in the next election and "mak nak kawen boleh?"..haha

Egypt: Where the World is Heading Now?

it has been more than a week since the protest in Egypt marched in the Tahrir Square demanding the 30 years old in power Egypt president to leave the government. This kind of turmoil is not only happening in Egypt but also happening in some of the country in middle east asking the government to reform.

it is really interesting how all this event triggered by the revolution in Tunisia. What i would like to emphasize is not the situation in Egypt because i have no knowledge the 'real 'situation there but i 'll telling you what i have been thinking since this event occurred and what would be happened to the world as the people in middle east rise to fight for their rights.

i could say that this revolutions are mostly because of the lack of government' s integrity and responsibility. The socio-economy marginalization had been the major factor that cause people, mostly young people to go protest calling for change in the government. the poor becomes poorer, the rich become richer which cause uneven distribution of economy cake.

The growing protest in the Egypt as far as i concern is not only because of the tyranny being in power for decades but the increasing of unemployment rate, raising food and fuel price and the others increasing economic and social problems in that country. i believe what people want are the reformation of politic and economic structure so that here will be a better future for them.

this mideast revolutions could be viewed as a reflection of people revolutions in 1940s to 1970s in most country in Asia. On that day, people in India, Indonesia, Malaysia, Philippines and etc. awoke to fight for their freedom from imperialism. People suddenly realized that government or that time 'imperialists' oppressed the citizen, used and exploited them to gather their own 'gold' and denied people rights, education and economy opportunity.

but today people are fighting for their freedom from a new kind of power or colonialism. today there are no more physically settlements and political control in the colonized countries but there are mentally presence in the government by controlling the people minds. the objective is still the same although the tools are different, it is to get everything that they want. Guess guys, what is today's tools to conquer one country? yeah. it is what in your mind. mass media control.

Now as most of the citizens in Mideast wake up and asking for reformations, this new kind of power becoming afraid and paranoid to this uprising of people. With no strong proves and arguments, they are trying to stop the uprising and denying democracy. this new power is using their influential and tools, try to establish what they want by install the people who will support their ideology and needs by being their puppet . but, today it can be seen that they have no control over this new event and this is what they are afraid of.

the current movement is still ambiguous for the world . the directions and the effects of the movement still could not be foreseen but at least im happy that there are some changes in the Mideast and really hope it will lead the world to a better future.

ps: "Truly, God does not change the condition of a people until they change what is in themselves.” (Quran 13:11)

UMNO and freemind

what is the first thing comes to your mind when you see the title above. do you think this post is related to some political or freethinker views?. indeed, it is related to politic and freethinker but it is not like you have in your mind. here i don't want to talk about politics or Freemason etc.. but i just want to share with you guys the wonderful thought and ideas in the 'alif ba ta' program organized by NY/NJ UMNO club so that you guys can longing for a free minds. iIwill explain a few inputs that I got from this event and will gives some of my opinion regarding the topic.

The first session given by dr Waleed is about mind of muslim. He mentioned that a muslim with a free mind comes with a mindset that prioritize Allah and messenger, Rasulullah SAW. so for those who does not know what is mindset, you all should take a note now (pergi amek kertas pen cepat)..so the mindset is a fixed mental attitude that govern our intention when we approach a situation ( hope you guys can understand that..haha). He also said that every action of muslim must be doing for the sake of Allah which means everything we do is because we want to seek Allah pleasure. the next thing that he mentioned is about faith. the faith is the great thing in ones mindset but people always assume that a person that have a strong faith in religion could not enjoy his/her life and need to act like ustaz or ustazah. that is totally not true guys..enjoy our life by following our faith is the best way to enjoy our life.. and of course mindset must be follow by action..bak kate pepatah melayu la kan xsalah ak"walk the talk".. a muslim must be creative in what he is thinking and doing so that we find the easiest way to get closer to Allah.

creatively thinking the way to get closer to Allah guys!!

what the most creative way to get closer to Allah is by reminding each other ..that is"amar makruf nahi mungkar". futhermore as a muslim we must always ask ourselves what we have done for Allah and always be thankful and say alhamdullilah~burlp.. for everything we get in this life.

so lets open our heart and mind to be a free mind muslim. In my opinion, i believe that a free mind of a muslim is started by the heart itself, because from the heart it will comes to the mind. and everything we do is indeed comes from our heart,which in malay we called it 'niat'. niat is a very important for us to be a free mind muslim. a free mind muslim is ones who knows to distinguish between the right or wrong. like dr. waleed said before a mindset must be follow by action and it is the same for a free mind muslim. a free mind muslim must creatively think and find knowledge. knowledge not only need to be understand but also need to be applied in our everyday life. what i would like to emphasize is that a free mind muslim must be eager and creative to search for knowledge in this world. For me, besides the experiences, the knowledge is one of important tools that will help us to free our mind. and of coz to get closer to Allah and messenger.

Apart of that, dr. bakri which i respect not only because his knowledge but also because of his personality, also said in the next session, in order for someone to be a free mind he must first realize that he/she is being under the coconut shell..realization is very important first step because without it ones could not change his mind. When we realized that we are being trap by the coconut shell we must take initiative to topping the shell. by topping the shell means that we need to be carefully open our mind so that we are in the right path, xdelah sesat barat... and of coz we need to be prepared to be a free mind. then we must be able to adjust to the new free mind world that we are open to. the last but not least we must avoid from being entrapped again. we must always creatively use our mind to think and don't ever misuse it. (haa faham x?.kalo xfaham bukak minda anda...)

a picture with a thousands thoughts

I could not agree more with dr. Bakri, because for ones to be a free mind person he/she must identify whether he/she is closed minded person. for me, the first time i found out that i'm a closed minded person when i did some personality test in psychology. the personality test help me to know that i was a closed minded person( which dat time i really dont believe it) but well to be an open minded person we must accept the feedback. because of that i try to improve the way i think and get to know myself and my surrounding well. however, im always thinks that a free mind person need to has a guidance so that he/she are on the straight path "almustaqeem"..

last but not least, for me religion must not be separated from life because religion especially Islam, 'the way of life' is not just a ritual in everyday life but it is like our spirit or soul. and if it is separated from our life. it is like we live with a body without a soul. It is clear that in al-Quran, islam in not just a ritual but the way of life..and i believe there is no needs any assumption or interpretation to understand al-Quran because al-Quran itu sdh jelas dan perlu diutamakan sebagai panduan hidup...

so guys hope you all will open your heart and open your mind. thank you.

ps:a free mind must has some guidance so that we dont sway away from the right path. it will comes with the modesty and austerity of oneself

pictures' credits to Rabbi Simcha Weinberg and its owner.

Dilemma & Basketball

dilemma and basketball, I'm very sure you guys must be wandering how are they interrelated to each other rite? lets me begin the story. First of all, lets we start with...

#1) Dilemma

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(try to sing like an intro of dilemma by nelly)

it's actually related to the last post, i need to decide what i should do other than just completing my degree. i believed that some challenges must make things interesting but i still have to decide whether i could overcome the impediment. Hence lets see, I have three options apart of just taking my degree, which either one of it have its own pros and cons.

1-degree with master
the pros are, the matter of fact that it will really save me a lot of money and time to get my master. Apart of that, it will be easier for me in the future to continue my education or get a job. Compare it, if i only have a degree which i think it is the same as students graduated in Malaysia or maybe worst because of their extracurricular or their leadership achievements, but the cons are it will cost me the hardship to achieve an excellent result for my master and of coz i'll not be able to go back to Malaysia in summer because i need to take the extra 10 subjects in order to complete my master in the same time as my degree graduation.

2-degree with minor/double degree
it is really interesting if we managed to be an intellectual in different fields as our past islamic intellectual such as al-Jazari. He is not only a mathematician but also a astronomer and engineer and etc. with less extra subjects to add in my graduation's subject list i'll be able to have two different fields of expertise.But for my ambition, although i admire al-jazari, i believe nowadays it is better to specialize in one field because today knowledge and environment are totally different in al-Jazari era and they all complicated which today problems we need a team of engineers to solve it.

3-degree with research experience
i desperately want some experiences in research because i hate to study without knowing how to apply it in everyday life. For an example, how many people know how our hand phone is working today. I believe you all will say all the simple theoretical things about wireless, electromagnet,circuit and so on but behind that simple things it's really complicated to create something that very useful in everyday life. knows all the theoretical does not mean u know how to apply it. Inventing the smart phone or hand phone, there are lot of knowledge applied and a large amount of money and time are used. So guys thanks to Graham Bell. lol..sorry for changed my topic.but think about it guys :).. Going back to degree with research experience, i believed it will give an awesome and priceless experiences for me and furthermore, i will get some extra money...haha...but still a lot of work to do to involve in such program. therefore i need to ask my seniors and dean about this matter.

dat's my first dilemma and then i have another dilemma which i believed it's quite irony because i hate to study english but still need to decide whether i would like to take it in this sem or not. since I entered kindergarten until now i never once manage to leave English subject. I'm always taking English subject every year or every semester..haish..but still my english is terrible..T.T...it's quite and headache because there is some positive and negative impact if i take the freshman writing in this semester. So i need to decide whether to take microeco, freshman writing or neither.haha

#2) Basketball

NETS vs UTAH JETS
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this is my first time saw a live basketball game in stadium although i never had once watched the game in tv..lol...it's really exciting and interesting..lets watch this video and tell me how do u feel about it. let me tell you it's the feeling for the first time i watched this basketball game. I was mesmerized, hynotized and finally i could not hold it any longer and i went all out..HOLY shit..haha..it was all started by the day i had a class of freshman writing. a hour before the class, my senior asked me whether i want to go watch basketball game that nite. after a few minutes of pondered about it, it was decided dat i'll go to this game and say hi hi bye bye to freshman writing with the help from my bestmate pojan, he provided me some crucial information about freshman writing which then it was decided that i will not have any english subject for the first time.yeah!! the burden of freshman writing is suck. owh sorry there is no picture of the game because i didn't bring my camera and it was a really last minute decision and i didn't have enough time to recharge my camera's battery.

so now you see how one of my dilemma was solved by one simple event.haha..now are you agree with me how dilemma and basketball could be related to each other? So dat's all for today..soyanara guys!!

ps: irony is the word for this post but hating something does not mean u need to leave it. language is my weakness thus i need to face it.